Thursday, May 1, 2025

Editor's Corner

By Mary E. Adair

“I thought that spring
must last forevermore;
For I was young and loved,
and it was May.”
– Vera Brittain


One hopes, now that it is May, for calmer weather, certainly warmer, and acres of colorful blossoms. The sixty plus year old Desert Willow beside my home is already in full bloom this year. It has never failed to have at least a single bloom by my Birthday in the second week of May. A G Adair, for whom Pencil Stubs is a tribute, planted it here after digging it up from beneath its venerable parent tree at my folks home, in the west part of town.


This issue brings new poetry from our most prolific author John I. Blair. He also dresses one of his earlier poems in a different language. Look for "Mi Alma" paired with the original "My Soul." His other poems this month are "Rhyme & Reason," "Garden Memories," and "Sometimes When The Dust Is Stirred."


Bruce Clifford's two poems are "Stayed" and "What's Your Secret Romeo." Bud Lemire's "Remembering Mom with Love" is perfect for this year's Mother's Day. Yours Truly added "Asymmetrical!" an abiding dream. We chose the late Phillip Hennessy's "Does The Conscious Continue?" for an encore presentation.


Walt Perryman shares his "After Easter Morning Thought" and a verse that most of us have experienced, "I Was Fixing To." Our columnist Judith Kroll was inspired to pen her poem "Folds of Sunlight."


"On Trek" is Ms Kroll's column which addresses "Memories." Mattie Lennon of Dublin Ireland adds a poem in his column "Irish Eyes" that relates a bit of recent history. He honors a notable friend's loss. Thomas F. O'Neill's "Introspective" is a celebration of May and its origin.


Pauline Evanosky's column "Woo Woo" offers advice gleaned from personal experience on the subject "Is Being Psychic Contagious?" The column "Cooking with Rod's Family" details their first experience preparing a curry meal at home. Complete details of preparation are included. Marilyn Carnell's column "Sifoddling Along" is unavailable this issue and we miss her interesting viewpoint.


"Armchair Genealogy" clues us in on the new ways DNA is being used in identification. Modern equipment and constant updating in capabilities of it surprises even those who work with it all the time. Big Win is identification of victims.


Pencil Stubs Online co-founded by Mike Craner and your editor, is still going strong in its 28th year because of his original expertise. I continue to express my gratitude to my talented friend and creative webmaster Mike Craner.


Our next issue will be the combined June and July to be published on the first of July. This will give everyone a little break for a vacation, at least from writing, and making deadlines!


See you in July!


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Armchair Genealogy

 

By Melinda Cohenour

Mother's Day is nearly here. There are reasons for celebration ... And memories that bring sweet nostalgic events to mind.


This month touches upon the maternal connection in three areas your author has pursued for years: the mystery parents whose lost identities created our brick walls AND the Mother-Child "Does" linked to our decades long research into the LISK (Long Island Serial Killer) also known as the Gilgo Beach Serial Sadist.


THE FIVE BRICK WALLS


Every family researcher encounters the one inevitable Brick Wall at some stage. Most are met with a brief disappointment but little investment of real disappointment. A few, however, concern key figures in the effort to weave together a continuous line that involves folks whose lives are integral to the core family.


Such importance has been stressed on my personal five brick walls for varying lengths of time.


BRICK WALL 1: My longest researched stumbling block has involved the broken mortar that pieces together the long line of the Joslin, Joscelyn, Josselin ... (many spellings) Family line that comprises half of my core family heritage: the Carroll-Joslin Connection.


What makes this so frustrating is that by DNA our lineage up to then back beyond that lost documentary proof is defining proof of descent. We miss documentation as to WHICH of several Joslin brothers fathered our P. R. Joslin, earning the title of a documented direct line ancestor.


BRICK WALL 2: This core family also lacks certified birth information for our Carroll line ancestor. The dratted Civil War brought about the nasty habit of each side's combatants of burning courthouses - thus destroying the documented heritage for thousands upon thousands of families. Earl Allen Carroll was born in a Missouri county where the courthouse was targeted.


BRICK WALL 3: My first husband was born out of wedlock and surrendered at birth to the Miami-Dade orphanage in Florida. I solved this mystery a few years ago. We now know his father was named Gill.


BRICK WALL 4: That left the identity of his mother as a mystery. Very soon the name of this mystery momma should be revealed. Your author lacks only a bit more research to link the DNA matches to my daughter, Melissa, and also to her nephew, my grandson Adam sired by her brother, John. Every so often we have new DNA matches bringing us closer to certainty as to Mystery Momma's identity.


BRICK WALL 5: This is a success story! We have definitive proof through DNA of the man who fathered Roxanne Marie (LeTourneau) Bradshaw. DNA from Roxanne's only two children, Shaun Jagger and Adam Bradshaw, have brought to light the name of their maternal grandfather. This story will be covered in a near future column as well


LISK (LONG ISLAND SERIAL KILLER) a/k/a the GILGO BEACH SERIAL KILLER or SADIST


This column has covered the emerging story of this sick monster's handiwork for years now. First interest in the case which has become of worldwide fascination was generated in May of 2010. News reports mentioned a young beauty by the name of Shannan Gilbert was lost after being hired through Craig's List to entertain a John in Oak Beach. Oak Beach is an enclave of upper class homes or beach houses in Long Island, New York.


The extended search for Shannan was carried on for months, a fruitless endeavor until December of that year. The Officer tasked with the continued search for Shannan, having exhausted likely recovery sites on Oak Beach, lead his cadaver trained K-9 Blue to nearby Gilgo Beach in December of 2010.


There, Blue made an historic discovery: a set of remains enclosed in burlap discarded in the wildly entangled brush. Everyone assumed Shannan's story had neared its conclusion. However, the next news was explosive. Blue had discovered more remains similarly bound in burlap near the first body. The news of that discovery was immediately eclipsed by the news of yet a third and then fourth discovery.


The young women whose tortured and bound bodies had been discovered were soon immortalized as the Gilgo Beach Four.


The world's news sources responded en masse, joining as close as possible to the army of law enforcement engaged in the search of this lovely but eerily lonely stretch of land oceanside.


Ultimately, the search resulted in the discovery of ten disparate sets of discarded extremities of dismembered or skeletonized victims' remains. None, however, proved to be that of Shannan Gilbert. Her story continues to intrigue as almost exactly one year after the December 2010 discovery of the Gilgo Beach Four, first Shannan's belongings and, finally her almost nude skeletonized remains were discovered in the briar and brush of the marshy land of Oak Beach, mere yards from where she was last seen.


Through the intervening years, all but three sets of remains on Gilgo Beach have been identified. The three victims whose identities had not been discovered were known as Peaches, Baby Doe, and Asian Male Doe (whose diminutive body was clothed in female attire).


Peaches' moniker was given her by the homicide detective who took the call when her dismembered torso was found years earlier in a large green storage bin within days of her murder. Prominently displayed on her left breast was a tattoo featuring a peach with a bite taken and blood drops inked in beneath. The torso had been discovered June 28, 1997 near Hempstead Lake State Park soon enough after her murder a good photograph was able to be taken.


In the intervening years, DNA tests revealed a surprising connection. Baby Doe, whose body was intact and whose skeleton revealed no apparent cause of death, had been left wrapped along with gold jewelry near the remains of Valerie Mack. Valerie and Jessica Taylor had been dismembered and their torsos discovered in close proximity in manorville years before. Baby Doe was proven by DNA to be the infant daughter of Peaches.


More to the mystery: Baby Doe's remains were found at the Easternmost boundary of the Gilgo Beach search and recovery area. Peaches' remains marked the Westernmost boundary. Speculation has risen among some who follow the case that the two, mother and daughter, may have been the victims of domestic violence. My personal opinion is that the serial killer charged with the deaths of six of the victims discarded on Gilgo Beach and with another murdered victim tied to him through DNA is the only logical person to be charged with Peaches' and Baby Doe's deaths. Who else knew the geographic boundaries of his perverted treasure trove of remains now known as the Gilgo Beach Serial Murderer's graveyard?


How does this case come to mind as we prepare for Mother's Day?


Just this past week, the Nassau County New York PD held a news report announcing the bittersweet news that mother and daughter, Peaches and Baby Doe, have been positively identified. THEY HAVE THEIR NAMES BACK AFTER ALL THESE YEARS!


SOURCE: https://abc7ny.com/post/gilgo-beach-murders-nassau-county-police-reveal-id-victim-peaches-toddler/16230218/


'Wednesday morning, police announced the mother was a 26-year-old Army veteran from Alabama named Tanya Denise Jackson. Her 2-year-old daughter was identified as Tatiana Marie Dykes, born in Texas on March 17 1995.


'Both of their remains were recently buried at Alabama State Veterans Memorial Cemetery at Spanish Fort in Alabama, with military honors.'

* * * * *


May your Mother's Day celebration bring joy, love, good health and sweet memories to each of you. God bless.


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Irish Eyes

 

By Mattie Lennon

Writers Week and The Passing of George Rowley

George Rowley; Civil servant, singer/songwriter, storyteller and author of A Memoir died on April 22nd. Among his many contributions to Writers Week George did MC at The Healing Session, a marathon Open Mic session, in John B. Keane’s for many years.


At the time of writing the programme for Listowel Writers’ Week 2025 has just come out. It looks like the Culture capital of Ireland will be buzzing like in days of yore: Art exhibitions, workshops, Book launches, open mic sessions and much more.


You will find the full programme at https://writersweek.ie/events-2025


If you happen to be on this green and misty island from May 28th to June 01st don’t miss it. The first Writers’ Week in Listowel was in 1971. It has grown and grown for the past fifty four years until there was a hiccup in 2023. But like all irritating ailments, with the right treatment, it has been cured.


I have attempted to tell the story of it in rhyme:

THE GOOD SHIP WRITERS’ WEEK.

By Mattie Lennon.

I remember twenty- twenty two
When hope was all around
Then when the year was half way through
For Listowel town I’m bound.
The Healing Session back once more
(Cocooning in the past.)
John B’s was packed right to the door
As Mickey gave a blast.


Of Aldi and of Lidl
And the lovely river Erne.
John Sheahan with his fiddle
Came in to do a turn.
A busty lass dropped in from work,
She’d banish any gloom,
And a woman from the County Cork
Said “Yes” like Molly Bloom.


It looked like things were back on track,
And the country lockdown-free,
With songs and poems and mighty craic,
After years of pent-up glee.
With the last song sung at half past five
Bright future we could see
And vowed if we were all alive
We’d meet in twenty-three.


Through winter’s dark and dismal days
What brightened up the soul?
To battle sad and sombre ways
We looked forward to Listowel
But towards year’s end disquiet bred fears,
With tension all around.
Would a ship afloat for fifty years
Be forced to run aground?


Consultants called; insults were rife
With words like “toxic” used.
Arts Council paid, to twist the knife,
And privilege was abused.
Program, of sorts, was brought out late,
It was of a boiled-shite hue.
Did power corrupt and seal the fate
Of those like me and you?


I called some good attenders
In early twenty three.
And asked of several genders,
“Now kindly tell to me
With the information on the go,
Will we see you in John B’s?”
A few said “Yes” but most said “No”
And some unsure “Maybe's”


When the day came round all things went well,
The air was friction-free.
When Billy hit his small church bell
You’d almost bend the knee.
Another brilliant session down
Just like it’s always been
But we learned from around the town
New brooms don’t all sweep clean.


Then a change of crew for twenty four,
Meant improvement on the cards,
Book launches, drama, talks and more
With returning poets and bards.
And thanks to those who fought the fight
To keep the flame alive
The programme’s out and all looks bright
For twenty -twenty five

©April 2025 Mattie Lennon


See you in July.


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Cooking with Rod's Family

 

By Rod Cohenour


This month we feature a really scrumptious recipe dreamed up by my daughter, Melissa, for her version of chicken curry. On the advice of a lady she encountered at Aldi's, Lissa bought a couple jars of Burman's Tikka Masala Curry Sauce. Having never prepared curry before, she decided she wanted to load the dish with our favorite veggies in addition to perfectly seasoned chicken breasts. We very briefly discussed what veggies would be good, then Lissa began prepping the meal.


I can only tell you the result was one of the most divinely flavored meals in my memory! Warning: the Burman's Tikka Masala Curry Sauce CAN be quite expensive although what she bought at Aldi's was reasonable. (Hope they don't succumb to the import costs currently impacting groceries and everything else!)


Before serving, Lissa had her daughter, Erin, prepare white steamed rice. I was amazed to discover Erin prepared her perfectly cooked, tender, fluffy, FLAVORFUL steamed rice ... In the microwave! I've asked Erin to contribute her tips as well.


For me, personally, a repeat dish prepared by Lissa (and Erin) cannot be delivered soon enough! Try this, you should absolutely love the results of your labor.


Bon appetit~!

Lissa's Indian Chicken Curry


(Serves 9 or 10)

Ingredients:

    *5 lbs boneless skinless chicken breasts (seasoned as shown below)
    *Large 60 oz pkg. California Blend veggies (broccoli, cauliflower, carrots)
    *3 lg. Bell peppers, cut in 1/2" chunks
    *Lg. Purple Onion, cut in same 1/2" chunks
    *Jar (15 oz.) Burman's Tikka Masala Curry Sauce
    *Olive oil to toss veggies in before pan roasting in oven (Choose a brand whose flavor you enjoy)
    *Badia Complete Seasoning, made up of the following herbs and spices (combine the following to make your own, per manufacturer notes, no quantities shown):
      -Dried Minced Garlic
      -Dried Minced Onion
      -Ground Cumin
      -Ground Coriander
      -Ground Black Pepper
      -Dried Oregano
      -Salt (omit if desired)
    * 3 Tbsp. Parsley leaves.
    * 1 bunch fresh cilantro. Rinse and place on paper towels to dry. Save a few nice twigs of cilantro for garnishing plates. Strip leaves after drying, remove from stems. Chop leaves and wrap in moistened paper towel to retain freshness until use.
    *Instant rice prepared in microwave as shown below:

Instructions:

    1. Prepare the baking sheet(s) for roasting the veggies and chicken. Sprinkle clean, dry pan(s) with Olive oil and spice mixture.
    2. Season the chicken:
    Combine Olive oil with the Curry Sauce and stir.
    Rinse and pat dry chicken and place on large cookie sheet or broiler pan. You want a shallow pan with a raised edge so everything cooks evenly.
    Dribble on olive oil-curry sauce mixture, covering all sides of chicken. Sprinkle seasoning on all sides of the chicken before roasting.
    3. Season the veggies:
      Rinse contents of California Blend bag and drain well. Toss fresh veggies and drained California Blend and layer on cookie sheet.
      Sprinkle with olive oil-curry blend and Seasoning mix. Using clean hands (your very best cooking tools), toss and stir veggies until evenly seasoned. The olive oil marinade is seasoned with dashes of the seasoning and the curry sauce combined on both veggies and chicken. Use one jar because you don't drench the marinade you cover all chicken pieces and veggies evenly.
    4. Roast chicken and veggies on baking sheet(s) on middle shelf of the oven and roast on separate sides or in separate pans in the oven at 350° F until beautifully done.
      While roasting, turn the chicken and veggies 2-3 times for even doneness, until chicken is perfectly done and veggies are lightly browned and crispy tender.
      (NOTE: Lissa chose to use far less of the curry sauce than one typically is served in an Indian restaurant. There the entire dish is literally swimming in a thick, rich sauce, like Southerners serve ground beef in white milk gravy. Lissa's dish was served with just a hint of the delicious sauce, and delivered a fragrant, gentle flavor of exotic sweet and spicy ground spices.)
    5. While roasting, prepare a box of Instant Rice: (Recipe provided separately below.)
    6. Serve over a bowl of Erin's Tender Steamed White Rice and prepare to luxuriate in the divine dish!


This dish is wonderful on its own, but you may choose to offer it with traditional Naan (Indian bread) or Pita or even offer warmed flour tortillas, and offer a variety of typical optional curry garnishes, such as:

    *Toasted cashews, mango chutney, toasted slivered almonds, roasted peanuts, plumped raisins or currants, crystallized ginger (although this has a slightly sweet flavor it can be spicy Hot!), fresh cilantro leaves, fresh mint leaves, lemon zest (or slices!), avocado slices, chopped green onions, or even pineapple chunks or tidbits.


However you choose to serve Lissa's Indian Chicken Curry, you and your guests are in for a treat.

Erin's Tender Steamed White Rice

Ingredients:

    * 5 cups rice from box of Instant White Rice.
    * 2 cups chicken broth
    * 4 cups water
    * 2 Tbsp. butter or oleomargarine
    * 2 Tbsp. Parsley flakes
    * 1 Tbsp. freshly chopped cilantro leaves

Instructions:

PREPARE RICE IN MICROWAVE OR ON STOVETOP ACCORDING TO PACKAGE INSTRUCTIONS; (HOWEVER, THIS IS HOW ERIN PREPARED HERS)

Mix all ingredients in microwave safe bowl, suggest one that is about 4 qt. capacity. It should be large enough to hold the ingredients with a couple inches room. You will need a cover for the dish as well.

Microwave about 5 minutes or until liquids come to a boil.

Turn off microwave. Set dish COVERED aside until all the liquid has been absorbed.

Fluff rice thoroughly with a fork. It should be fully cooked, tender and not clump together or reveal remaining liquid.

(* MEC NOTE: This dish might be enhanced by use of instant Jasmine rice. Most curry dishes recommend Basmati. )


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Introspective

 

By Thomas F. O'Neill

Goodbye, April, and Hello, May

May is the last full month of spring, and it is named for the Roman goddess Maia, who oversaw the growth of plants, also from the Latin word maiores, “elders,” who were celebrated during this month. Maia was considered a nurturer and an earth goddess, which may explain the connection with this springtime month.


Undoubtedly, May is a beautiful month for both hemispheres. In the North, spring is gradually blooming into summer, while the South celebrates autumn's gorgeous colors and harvest.


This month has the energy to help us reach our goals and heart desires. We utilize May’s energies by going the extra mile with our projects; watching them succeed will be our ultimate reward.


May will also bring about expansion and spiritual growth movements when we feel we can rise above adversity. The magical concept of May is that you don’t know if you will succeed until you move out of yourself and give it a go.


The 1st of May marks the Beltane festival for the northern hemisphere, and Samhain is also celebrated on the 1st of May in the southern hemisphere. It was a time to dance, sing, and be merry. A time to emit your inner light and to show your love; it was also celebrated to usher in the new season. Like all months in the Gregorian calendar, May was named by ancient cultures. The Greeks called it May after their goddess Maia, referred to in Roman culture as Bona Dea.


Let this month usher in positive energy to work on self-improvement. Live the journey, let your self-expression shine, dare to do things differently, and ask, “What can I do to make this world a better place?”


Also, take the time on Sunday, May 11, to wish all mothers a happy Mother’s Day.


Always with love,
Thomas F O'Neill

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Woo Woo

 

By Pauline Evanosky

Is Being Psychic Contagious?

Yes, being psychic is contagious, though not many people will admit it. I’ve seen it happen over the years.


Everybody is born psychic. It’s called having a sixth sense. As we grow, our other senses come into play: sight, hearing, smelling, tasting, and touch. The sixth sense, the ESP, extrasensory perception, is sometimes elusive. I think children have better access to it, but as they grow and move into our various local societies, those impressions are discouraged or, at least, not encouraged.


How often do you hear of kids who have imaginary friends? When they get old enough, those friends disappear or are encouraged to disappear by well-meaning older people.


That was real. Not imaginary.


I don’t remember having imaginary friends, but who is to know? Maybe I did. Anybody in my life who might have known about it is gone now. I was a kid and can’t quite remember all the stuff that went on when I was younger.


The idea that being psychic is contagious is different. People don’t talk about it much, but it makes sense. Somewhere along the line, I remember Ram Dass saying to get psychic hang around psychic people. Either he said it, or Wayne Dyer did. Both are good folk to read, and although they don’t openly claim to be psychic and are more spiritual in teaching, they are good writers to read.


The thing about being psychic is to be sensitive. To what? Well, to everything. I found it was a journey that included moving spiritually. Maybe it will be the same for you too.


I have a friend whose grandmother had the gift. People were afraid of it then as they are now. What manner of information can be received along that sixth sense? All sorts.


For myself, it is helpful when I get down in the dumps. I could see where having access to a friend growing up would be fun. Having a spirit guide is fun, too.


In the beginning, I worked to be psychic. A few oddball incidents in my childhood and early adulthood might have been called psychic experiences or laughed off as coincidences.


It wasn’t until I was a teenager that I had a moment that occurred between being awake and being asleep. It’s never happened since then, well, once, but I thought I saw my grandmother across the room looking at my calendar that hung on the wall. I squeezed my eyes shut and opened them again, only to still see her. She had brown hair in a ponytail. When I closed my eyes a second time and opened them again, she was gone. She didn’t look like my grandmother, who had white hair and who had been dead for many years. But, somehow, I knew in my heart that it was my grandmother.


In the morning, I told my mother about my dream, expecting her to say I’d probably eaten something the previous evening that didn’t agree with me. It’s what she always said when I had a bad or unsettling dream. But she surprised me and said she figured that was my grandmother. That’s when she told me of all the instances through the years that Grandma had been able to see things and to know of things she had no way of knowing.


One was that she would telephone Mom sometimes and, without even saying hello, would instead ask Mom what was wrong. She knew when my grandfather had crashed his plane at an airfield in Rhode Island, even before the tower knew about it. He walked away with no scratches.


I can remember grieving so deeply for her. It was unusual even for me. Other family members had passed during the 30 years I grieved for her, and eventually, after they had died, I did not grieve for them so horribly. I can remember driving home from work and missing her so much that I burst into tears. Was that a sign? I don’t know. I’ve never asked anyone, but not long after I learned to channel, she came to talk to me. That was the day I stopped grieving for her. Everything was all right.


It is that cessation of my own grieving process that I want to share with others. Folks on the other side are okay. They are happy. They are interested in life. It’s like one spirit guide named Emmanuel said once, “Dying is like waking up from a nap.”


I’ve never thought about it this way. It took me to become a psychic to experience the proof of it to my own satisfaction that I was able to begin healing from a death. Don’t get me wrong. I still mourn the folks in my life who pass on, but the mourning period does not linger for 30 years.


Someone in Spirit just said to me, “There really is a rainbow at the end of it.”


Maybe becoming psychic is more like learning to draw.


The drawing was there all along. You, the new artist, just need to learn to see a little bit differently. Instead of looking at a landscape of trees and thinking, “Oh, they look like lots of little broccoli standing up.” And then drawing the trees to look like broccoli, you begin to see the lines and shadows around the trees, seeking instead a different way of seeing.


Being psychic is just being open to more information. It doesn’t always come in as words in your ears. The other day, I walked by my cup of coffee. It was on the kitchen counter.


There wasn’t anything particularly interesting about it, but I thought to myself, “Would it help to put some coffee into my houseplants that aren’t doing well?” Then, I moved on to other things. The thought ended there. It was just that. I didn’t think about it anymore. I was busy and had stuff to do.


The next day, I was channel surfing on YouTube. One of the suggested videos for me to look at was a guy who prepared a solution containing honey, aloe, and coffee to water plants that needed some help. Even I, who is an openly declared psychic, was surprised. Imagine that.


If you are interested in the YouTube channel, it is called Happiness Garden.


Thanks for reading. Being psychic is not unusual, and hanging around with other psychics is definitely easier. At least when you speak to them of the odd stuff that happens in your life, they will say, “Yes, seeing butterflies in the garden who remind you of your mother could mean she is watching over you.”


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On Trek

 


By Judith Kroll

Memories

What a beautiful gift we have in our memories. Stored with all the precise facts and energy, feelings, smells, etc. Recalling a Good memory is a real treat. I have many of them that brighten my day, wearing a smile of love as I remember each detail.


If we remember a bad memory, every detail, feelings, energy, and smells come back. That is why we need to bury our bad memories, let them go.


Our trash has pieces of good meals, and some not so good. When we empty the trash we take the memories away. We can remember a bad memory if it brings us to a belly laugh because we did something "stupid". Good memories should be kept in a good memory compartment in our brains.


When we give birth to a child, we tend to forget the pain, and dwell on the beauty of the experience, and hearing that first cry. That first cry was a beautiful cry. Cry of life. I am here, and I am ready to meet you and the world. A good memory can be triggered by a smell for example. Or someone's laugh, or the feel of the sun. Embrace that tender moment. Love is the key.


We are all energy that reacts to the frequencies of the Universe. We are all part of those frequencies. We are those frequencies.


We live to the beat of them. We are all connected. Picture yourself wrapped in the hum of the universe. Flowing and glowing with it.


We truly are a miracle. We matter. Always remember the love.
Judith 3/22/25


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Remembering Mom with Love

 

By Bud Lemire

With her final breath, and a tear from her eye
Her spiritual presence, took flight to the sky
To the place called Heaven, where we all go
She’s earned a special place there, this I truly know
She shared her gift of life and love, with us all
Until the time came, for her to answer the call

We shall remember, all she shared in the past
And the memories of these times, will always last
The memories when she sang to us, when we felt fear
We always felt so calm, when she was always near
The games we played, that were so much fun
It never really mattered who lost or who won

The pictures of the many faces, that she always drew
And the beautiful handwriting, that each of us knew
All the family stories, that she loved to tell
For me, I can still hear the ringing of her bell
I was her closest friend, when nobody else was here
I knew when she was happy, I knew her greatest fear

I’ve always called it home, because we were never apart
I knew she loved each of her children, with all of her heart
I hope everyone knows, I gave her the best care that I knew
Maybe I could’ve tried harder, but I did what I could do
I wish I could have done more, but she accepted me for being me
She always appreciated all I did do, and all that I could be

She was a warm and caring person, a Mother we all love
She earned a place in Heaven, with the Angels up above
As we journey in this life, one thing we all must know
She’ll always be in our memories and hearts, wherever we may go
I truly believe the love that we share with her, never really dies
Our spiritual bond with her lasts forever, that is the family ties

©2001 Bud Lemire

Author Note:

Her journey continues in Heaven,
but her love is felt forever


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I Was Fixing To . . .

 

By Walt Perryman

Give myself to Jesus Christ with all my heart,
But I’ve been waiting for the right time to start!

Tell my amazing wife, Laura, how much I love you.
But I didn’t do it, but God knows I was fixing to.

Spend more time with my kids earlier in life
There’s so much I didn’t do that I was fixing to.

Here is something about fixing to, I want to say,
Never be a fixing to person and just do it today.

©4/22/2025 Walt Perryman


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Asymmetrical!

 

By Mary E. Adair

Oh to be Asymmetrical!
To have planes that slope or jut
To be able to command attention
Standing hip-shot or tilting one's butt.

To smooth a blouse that's blousey,
Not stretched from here to there
With crosswise wrinkles straining
To hide what one dreads to bare.

To toss one's locks effectively
Around slim neck and firm chin
Rather than combing hair forward
To cover jaw's puffed excess skin.

To reach and pick up objects
Displaying graceful arm and tiny wrist
Not struggle to keep sleeves lengthened
Over pudgy arm clear down to one's fist.

To recognize an ankle bone
Defined and oh so neat
That guides the eye downward
To lean and flexible feet.

With angular hip bones all can see
Pushing out against one's skirt
And svelte, thin arms whose elbows
When bent, appear sharp enough to hurt.

The type of silhouette you'll see in Elle
Once prevalent on every Vogue page--
So barely there in profile shot--
The look that's still the rage.

The sophisticated semi-lunge
Of the flat-chested ballerina form
Lopsided pose to proselytize
Sassoon's odd style as the norm.

No capacious capes draped over this model
No curvy hips you'll see,
All are extremely asymmetrical--
None bounteously shaped like me.

No lap to cuddle a baby or two--
Why, they'd slide right off to the floor!
And those ribs would be like leaning against
A wrought iron guard on a door.

So maybe it would never fit my life style
To be asymmetrical, and yet
The admiring looks men cast their way
Are difficult for my ego to forget.

Thus I often dream how great it'd be
To weigh less than half what I do
And I strive to eat healthy and exercise--
A regimen I really don't rue.

But, Oh to be Asymmetrical--
Not rounded in every place
From calves and thighs and hips
To shoulders, bosom, and face.

All my angles are well hidden within--
Sharp remarks and a pointed reply--
But the next time I hear I'm 'well-rounded'
Someone may receive a black eye.

©Jan 09, 2008 Mary E. Adair
Encore


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Mi Alma

 

By John I. Blair

Si tuviera un alma
Volaría como un pájaro blanco,
Viendo todo,
Sintiendo todo,
Libre como la brisa,
Capaz de aterrizar en estanques o praderas;
Pero preferiría posarse
Cerca de ti.

©2025 (Spanish Version*) John I. Blair
(*This is with corrections by a friend.
My poem “My Soul” in Spanish.
Would be something new for Pencil Stubs I believe.)
My Soul

If I had a soul
It would fly as a white bird,
Seeing everything,
Feeling everything,
Free as the breeze,
Able to light on pond or prairie;
But it would prefer to perch
Close to you.

©2004 John I. Blair
Encore.


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Does The Conscious Continue?

 

By Phillip Hennessy

Does the conscious continue
When all else is dead,
Could mind and spirit live on,
With no life ahead?

Outside the body,
Out of the mind
Do thoughts stay alive,
(The no-brainer kind)?

Does the spirit survive
When the body is gone
Do thoughts stay alive
And go on, and on?

When dead people speak
And we hear the sound
Is it deep in our soul
From a past, earthly bound

That random connection
Of messages learned
The noise of corruption
So passive, so stern

It's all wishful thinking,
Or powerful senses
That transpire reason
And transform pretenses

Subconscious feelings
That come to the fore
Of deep understanding
And so, so much more.

We're guided, it's true,
The mysteries timeless.
It's all we can do
To still retain 'mindness'

The answers we seek
From elders all passed
The meanings of life
Elusive, so vast

What goes around,
comes around, Heart to Heart
Forever entwined
When our spirits depart

Whispers from souls
Each side of the veil
Each message reminds us
That Love will prevail

©2012 Phillip Hennessy
Encore


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Garden Memories

 

By John I. Blair

Gazing through my garden window
At the jungle that has grown
Where once stood beds of peonies
And irises,

I sigh to think
Of all the hours gone
Since first we started
Planting here.

Years ago it seems now,
Dreams were boundless,
Fancies free to fly,
Ambition knew no end.

Now that’s memories.
But memories are powerful;
They still bring happiness
Into my heart

And hope that what once was
Might grow again
If only at the hands
Of someone new.

©4/1/2025       John I. Blair


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What's Your Secret Romeo

By Bruce Clifford

I want to talk to you Romeo.
I tried to call but no one was home.
I have imagined what it’s like to be you out there.

I read the book about you and Juliet.
As you can see, I can’t forget.
What is it like being the two of you out there?

What’s your secret Romeo?
What’s your secret Romeo?
What’s your secret Romeo?
Romeo

You said you loved her when you looked in her eyes.
I knew her once so I’m not so surprised.
What is it like to see her through the night?

I want to ask you Romeo.
How does it feel to have her to hold?
What’s it like sitting under the stars with her out there?

What’s your secret Romeo?
What’s your secret Romeo?
What’s your secret Romeo?
Romeo

I want to talk to you Romeo.
There are so many things I want to know.
Why did you hurt her knowing she was pure?

I saw the play about you and Juliet.
How could you destroy her without any regrets?
When they took you away did it ring in your head at all?

What’s your secret Romeo?
What’s your secret Romeo?
What’s your secret Romeo?
Romeo

©4/16/2025 Bruce Clifford


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Sometimes When The Dust Is Stirred

 

By John I. Blair

Sometimes when the dust is stirred
Things rise up that should not be disturbed

And this can lead to sounds
You would rather not be heard.

Lead to memories
That do not please.

Memories that should have stayed
Where they were left

There in the dust,
There in the past.

It is not always good to be remembered.

®2025 John I. Blair


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After Easter Morning Thought

 

By Walt Perryman

Easter was the most important day in history, this I would say,
Is when Jesus ascended into Heaven 40 days after Easter day.

Our lives were changed by the death of Jesus Christ,
When He died for our sins and paid the ultimate price!

Then Jesus taught his Apostle’s about God and His love.
40 days later Jesus ascended into Heaven like a Dove!

And from that time on everyone had a choice to make,
Eternal life in Heaven or Hell! Which one will you take?

©4/21/2025 Walt Perryman


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Folds of Sunlight

 

By Judith Kroll

She came to me within the fold
of a sunlight beam
Her face Glowed with the aura of the sun's
loving fingers shimmering as her halo.

I beamed the biggest smile in my dreams,
as my child of light came to visit,
Her warmth of love will always BE...with me
Our souls forever shine in the folds of the sunlight!!

© April 18, 2025 Judith


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Stayed


By Bruce Clifford

I lack the confidence to be myself.
Living alone in this private shell.
I climbed the edge to service all of this.
Never finding a reason to resist.

I played with lighting on the seventh seas.
Finding the edge between falsehoods and disease.
My mind was active but turned naturally gray.
Guess she was the one who I let get away.

I lack the voice from within my inner self.
Making waves with the dreams of nothing else.
Passing the judgment on when to disagree.
Falling to pieces in many fractions of degrees.

I lack the confidence of what I was meant to be.
Walking past windows and exposed to a degree.
I walked the envelope between dusk and time.
Never once thought you could ever be mine.

I played with fire beneath the frozen lake.
Within in a blink of an eye it was all I could take.
My mind was focused but turned naturally gray.
Guess she was the one who I wish would have stayed.

©4/1/2025 Bruce Clifford


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